Wednesday, November 11, 2009

6 and 30

I neglected my six month post so this is it. Six months on the wait list, not much more to say :)

Today is my 30th birthday, ugh. I feel officially old. I have been dreading this day for a while now, mostly because I am not where I wanted to be at this time in my life. My plan was to be done having kids at 30; but, for a variety of reasons I am not yet a mother. I expected to at least have a referral by the time I turned 30. Even as I write these words I am not discouraged. I know there is something amazing and beautiful at work. When I gaze into the sweet face of our child I will know that all this waiting was meant to be. If we had done things any differently we would never have the little girl who is waiting for us. If you pray would you please lift her up in your prayers, specifically her health and the transitions in her care.


Rebecca said...

I totally understand how you feel. I will turn 31 five days after our court date and I feel so lucky-outside of the feeling totally stressed that something will cause a delay. It was always my goal to be a mom by the time I was 30. The thing is ... I have been a mother the whole year of being 30 and even a bit when I was 29 ... I just didn't know it yet!!!

So enjoy your birthday. Celebrate yourself. Pamper yourself because you deserve it!!! And know- what you know in your heart- you are a mom!!!

Mark and Heidi said...

You guys are way ahead of this old lady! I know that turning 30 feels old at the time but it's really still very young and some of your best years ever are ahead of you. Lisa, I am now convinced that your referral is either going to be for an infant or sibings. Here's hoping for some good news very, very soon!

The Francis Family said...

Hey, Lisa. Watching your name on the FBI list intently. You realize that if a girl older than 6 months and younger than 18 months is available you'll be first on the list. I'm sure you know that already. ;) Congrats! We are just a few down from you and are waiting for a little girl 0 - 12 months. Anyway, watching your blog and praying for God's direction. Billy, Annalise and Callie.

Mark and Heidi said...

Look at you at the tippity top of the list!!! Hooray, can't wait to see that you got the call!!!